Another year has finally ended.

Finally.

My 13th year is now over. My last test was today.
The school year in itself wasn't that bad, but could have gone better this semester. I...accept that I am a master procrastinator, but oh well. It was better than other years.

My life's been going really rough lately, with there being an earthquake yesterday...not literally. But it caused me a great amount of damage and grief, and was to the point of insanity.

I am very lonely here. I have no one. I...don't wish to get into any details, but, it's not just that I haven't looked, but...it's all so complicated...

But I can't weep over this because either way my life is going to change soon...or rather...revert itself to its former stability. So there's no point in whining, because everything that's happening has happened according to my own design. That's the power of hope, and faith right there. Faith in that things will get better. But that's only because I'm so disappointed with everything right now. People continue disappointing me as I continue unmasking them. All of them. Every single one. Even those closest to me (Family, even). And it's a terrible thought. It's a terrible feeling. Realizing lots of things you knew turned out to be...something else entirely.

I'm still very much overcome with fear. Fear that events may cause me to do malignant actions, and finally lose my mind permanently.

At least I got one less load. No more studying. For now.


Soon I'll see them all again.

Soon I'll see my castle again.




My friends: